Free bird.

I have not written anything on here in a few months. :o Wow, he he. Well, not much has changed. I do not think that I have changed much.

Rock this way. :o

I am currently watching a show called, "100 Greatest Artists of All Time." I wonder if Lil Wayne is going to be in one of those shows in a few decades. I don't have anything against Lil Wayne or rappers  but I don't think they are setting a very good example for little kids. -.- Who wants a drug addict who sings about drugs and sex as a role model for their kids? I don't like what is happening to rap music nowadays but then again I wonder if people thought this decades ago. Maybe I will learn to appreciate that music in a few years.

Make today a sunny day. :D

I am going to San Antonio in a few days. I am really excited because I'm going with awesome people. :) They are the seniors. I do not know if they know this but I admire them greatly. They laugh about everything and do not worry what anybody says. I will be cool like them when I am a senior. :D I will miss them greatly. I hope their dreams come true.

There are things you cannot change.

Something that I really dislike is the urgency that people have to fit in. People do not need to state to the world that they are doing drugs. Why would anybody care? Making it obvious that you do drugs is just ruining your image. After high school ends and the real world begins, it will not be so "cool" to be known as a junkie. If you really like to do that, it is your business but do not ruin your image and your life. Think before you do something!

The Notorious BIG. :o

AH! I wish I could time travel. I really want to know what it was like to live in the 1920s-1980s. I would love to meet some writers from the 1920s and attend the famous parties decorated with jazz music. I would LOVE to attend a Queen concert. I would love to meet Albert Einstein and touch his famous hair. It would be amazing if somebody figured out a way to time travel.

I have yet to attend a rock concert.

I believe that society is regressing greatly. ( Yes, I just learned what regressing meant.) Children are not reading anymore and priorities are changing. Children no longer want books. Children only want video games and iPods. Even devices created for reading include applications to play games or enter social networking sites. I think that little kids shouldn't have so much access to all these devices that stop them from thinking. D: They should be able to play games once in a while, but they should also be exposed to things that will enable their minds to think.

I want to live life like Audrey Hepburn.

I have been thinking lately about my future. I hope that I am cut out to survive in the world. I am afraid of how  I will react to moving out. I know that I am always wishing to move out of my house, but when the moment comes, I know I will not like it. I will miss my parents and their constant orders to clean my room or to stop being lazy. I hope that the shock is not so great and that I can carry on with my life like every person must.

One day I will drive around the country without a destination.

I think that the best popcorn is the one sold at the movies. I am going to buy a popcorn machine when I grow up. :)

Green gatorade is freaking good.

'Til then, penguin

a whatever day.

I haven't been on blogger in a very long time. It has a completely new look. I kind of slacked off, but it was for a good cause. I have had homework and so many other things that I don't really have a life anymore. Well, it isn't like I ever had one. I've had this sudden urge to go to the movies lately. I guess I miss the popcorn from there.

crappy days ruin my week.

This year has been so blehish. That's not a word, but the word sounds lazy. This year has been lazy, dull, boring. I haven't had any excitement yet. If anything, I keep setting myself up for disappointment. I'm doing fine on grades. The problem is that I don't really know who I talk to anymore. There's a limited amount of people that I can actually have a meaningful conversation with. More than half of that group will be gone next year. I don't know. This year is just depressing in a way. Maybe I'm just saying this because I had a bad day.

i have been in people's conversations.

One thing that I'm completely afraid of are my flaws. I try not to think of my flaws but when I do, I get really affected. They can tear me apart for days. I can be unstable for days. One of the reasons I'm writing today after so long is because I've been thinking a lot lately. I'm pretty sure that by the end of highschool I won't be talking to most of the people I talk to now. I'm pretty sure that alot of people are going to change. I'm also pretty sure that I should stop trying to gain approval from alot of people. The truth is
i know I don't need approval but I crave it. I can't stand the feeling of not being liked or the feeling of rejection. I hate being rejected. I hate when people leave me in doubt. I hate when I try my best and other don't. I hate when I try my best and I still don't win. It sucks that I try my best and others don't care. They don't care and they are the prefered ones and  the ones who are congratulated. I'm tired of seeing all that…..

I know… I just needed to let everything out.

I'm pretty sure no one will read this. I don't care… I just needed to vent. I took no grammar into consideration. I seriously try to be the best person I can be… It just sucks when I am told that I need to try even harder. I am a good person. I word hard to be a good person… Nobody has the right to tell me otherwise. No one has the right to call me inconsiderate because I try SO HARD to please people. I take so many things into consideration. The funny thing is that I am corrected by those who have the most flaws. I will be the bigger person. I will let it go…

It's a sign.

Today, I woke up feeling fresh, happy, and inspired. I do feel pretty sleepy but that's because I went to sleep at 3 in the morning. I realized, during many conversations that I was having, a lot of people need to be appreciated and listened to. It is like small children. When a small child is crying and misbehaving, sometimes, it just takes a talk to fix the problem. A person just wants to feel loved. I don't blame anybody for this because everybody gets lonely and everybody needs a friend. Too much can cause a person to breakdown and it would be nice if somebody was there to pick them back up. Not every person is going to be a good friend, so you need to know the people who care and are there for you. Those people are the people worth it.

When you can't say something, write a letter.

Change isn't something I appreciate. I usually like things to stay the same. If anything changes, I'd rather it be for the better, but in life everything changes. Changes can ruin our life depending on how we cope to everything. We just always have to be prepared. We can't just give up because something has gone wrong. When something goes wrong, the LAST thing we should do is have pity on ourselves. Having pity on yourself will only cripple you and make you weaker. Time will heal it all. We have to make sure to always keep a positive attitude and face the world like if it were an ant, small and easy to step on. Nothing can stop us…except death or a bad criminal record hehe.

I'm not a big fan of Dora…

People will not always take you serious. The reason for that is you're not always going to be important to everybody. You can try but it is impossible. There are always people with different opinions and views on the world. You just make sure that whenever you go somewhere, you at least have the most respect you can. A person doesn't have to like you personally but if they respect you, then all is good. Wherever you go, behave yourself and have manners. Be friendly and don't make enemies. Anybody is better as a friend than an enemy. Respect others as you would like to be respected. Try to judge the least that you can. Looks don't matter because a pretty flower can be poisonous. 

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. :) (I don't know what that writers of that quote were thinking because lemonade without sugar tastes bad.)

You know that feeling of excitement when you buy school clothes and supplies and you can't wait to use them? I do. I bought converse. They aren't yellow this time but navy blue. I would've liked some yellow ones but I'd already bought two shades and I didn't know if there were more kinds of yellow. I mostly miss my teachers. I thank God that I have the teachers I do. There is one exception, though. Names will not be mentioned, but that lady is evil and careless. I'm pretty sure that by the second week of school, I'll be wishing for summer again. 

50s jazz has a humongous effect on me. It makes me happy. 

I have a theory about humankind. I am no philosopher but I do believe people live to be happy. I believe that a person's ultimate goal should be happiness. It shouldn't be money or anything else. Money brings greed. Sometimes all we need is enough to survive. 


What is your picture of a happy ending?


I already know how I want to die. That sentence might sound weird, but I just know already. My happy ending would be lying in a bed with white sheets. The bed would be facing a brown wooden window. The window would be showing my farm. The farm would house strawberries. The strawberries weren't to be sold, but only eaten. My family would be surrounding me and I would fall asleep forever. Hopefully a hospital doesn't ruin my dreams. -.-


You're a positive joy.


So, the title was a random one. Those words are the first that came to mind when I began writing. I've been in a state of mania. :) It feels nice when I'm on top of the world. Everything seems easier when I'm in a good mood. Below, I will post some links to pages you might enjoy or like. 


I don't know if we're on a garden or a crowded avenue. <3


May your teeth never be replaced by freshly ironed wool socks.

Believe it or not, that flower is poisonous.
Narcissus

http://www.zappablamma.com/zb/
http:/hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/
http://www.youtube.com/user/OkGo?blend=1&ob=5