Inspiration.

It doesn't take much to be inspired and for some reason I always am. I was inspired a few days ago to make this blog by Jason Mraz. I figured that by writing my feelings and encounters, I wouldn't feel so lonely. As you can see, I must be really inspired to blog without any followers. Well yes, I am. I also got inspired today by a girl named Nelida. This might seem very cheesy but she inspired me to live life without fear. I am filled by fear. Too many things scare me. She finds everything funny. Sometimes I smile but i don't find  what made me smile funny. It is just a motion. I find myself doing just motion too often now. I guess I've grown too distant from people that mean alot to me. I don't think that I have ever been super close to a person before. I don't think I'm capable of doing that. It is just too hard for me to be close to somebody. I have never had a person know everything about me. I have tried to be very close to people but I guess they're not interested. It is okay that they are not interested because it is hard for me to be interested too. It has to be mutual and then I will give a friendship my all. Back to the subject, I want to change the way I think. Sometimes I overanalyze things and it makes me depressed and nobody can help me. The only way I can escape is by reading books and at times I just don't want to read books. Overanalyzing things leads to negative thoughts. I am tired of negative thoughts. I know people care about me. People care about you too and bad thoughts will do nothing but harm. You must always see the bright side of things and when there isn't a friend there for you, there is always family. When there is no family there for you, there are books. There is always something for you and if one day you happen to finish all the books that the earth has to offer, write one yourself. I will read it. Okay, I will stop writing. Blogging makes me happy because even if nobody reads it, you are letting at least the internet know how you feel. A human isn't perfect and sometimes no human wants to listen to problems. Writing is always there. So with that, I say good bye. There is always someone there even if it isn't human.